The English corner did not come to an end until about ten o’clock last night. After that, my foreign teacher, Rick came to chat with me, so I came back to my dorm very late. Not until then did I realize my cousin, who studied in Buoluo Middle School in my hometown had called me. She seldom gave a call to me, so I thought there must be something wrong. After second thought, I remembered the day before yesterday is the time when Guangzhou Model Test 1 was held. I guessed she must have performed badly in the test. As it was late at that time, I did not call her back. Today I gave her a call, only to confirm what I had thought. She indeed performed badly in the test.
I think it is not the first time for my cousin to fail in the exam. But why did she call me to pour out her pain this time? It is well known to all the people who have evern taken the college entrance examination in Guangdong Province that Guangzhou Model Test 1 is of greatest authority and prediction. I remember when I was in my third year of senior middle school, my teacher told me that a student’s final performance would flunctuate within the band of 30 scores up or down the score you got in the model test. At that time our full mark is 900, but now the full mark is based on the original score, the total of which is 750. therefore, 30 scores in the past means only 10 now. according to this speculation, if you get 500 in the model test, your final performance will range between 490 and 510. But is the model test that predictive? According to my observation, I do keep skeptical of it. I also studied in Buoluo Middle School before. Our final result is that those who performed so so or even badly in the model test got a surprisingly high score in the final, while those who performed exceptionally in the model test got a low score.
Hearing this, many people may say that those who performed well in the model test bore too much pressure out of others’ high expectation, so they could not bring out their best performance in the final. While those who performed badly have got used to failure and could confront the final bravely and calmly, so they could perform better. Is it really true? To my mind, those who performed badly in the model test received more pressure than those excellent students. Good students are concerneb about which good university to choose, while not-so-good students are concerned about whether they can go to college. Nowadays many people are inclined to involve psychological factors into various matters. When someone succeeds, they will praise his good psychology; when someone fails, they also attribute the failure to bad psychology. I remember a student in Huan Province was reported by various newspaper due to his excellent performance in the college entrance exams. All the newspaper, apart from describing his hard work in daily life, focused on depicting his strong psychological condition, claiming that he had maintained great composure throughout all the tests until the last wonderful performance. However, while interviewed by a TV Channel, what the student said had stunned all the audience. He said that he felt extremely nervous when taking model exams and failed several times, making his teachers and parents panic to comfort him. Several weeks before the final, he fell sick and lay in bed for a week because of over-anxiety. On the days of college entrance exams, he still felt nervous at heart, worrying that he could not do well. But when he began doing the paper, he felt it was not difficult. But nor did he think of being No.1, which should become true later stunningly. After the TV program, ironic laughters spread everywhere. All the people were laughing that even the No.1 student could have a bad psychology.
I raised this instance not to play down the importance of psychology. Conversely, psychological condition is really critical and we should try our best to cultivate a strong will with great composure in our life, study and work. Only by doing this can we go through all the setbacks and reach our goal eventually. Nevertheless, in our real lives, we always attribute people’s success to his strong psychological condition and attribute their failure to weak psychological condition. Is it true all the time? I do not deny that successful people have a better psychology, but some people who fail in their career do not necessarily have a weak psychology. We all know that the reasons for failure are multiple-layered and sometimes have nothing to do with psychology. Take the college entrance examination for instance again. When you do well in the model test, it may be because the exercise is old and repeated or smilar to the exercise you have done. Therefore, it is piece of cake for you to do it and get a high score. But when it comes to the college entrance exams, you may do different exercise from that you did before. Worse still, if your foundation is not solid, it is very normal for you to do badly. It has nothing to do with your psychological condition at that moment. You still take the exam as you used to and your mood does not change at all, but you do not perform well. Then everyone is pondering whether your psychology is not stable enough. But before the exam, no one cast doubt to this. After the exam, every one does.
In our real lives, there are too many people fond of seeking the reason after an incident occurs. Before the incident, everyone is regarding everything as on the right track. No one has doubt about it. If someone doubts about it, he will be attacked by all others. When something wrong takes place, everyone is busy finding reasons and begins to push the buck to each other. If they can really find out the essential reasons, then it is quite good. But the point is that many people tend to be too sensative and the reasons they find are totally irrelevant to the incident. In fact, failure is a common phenomenon in our lives and sometimes the reason is very simple. It can be summarized as four words: Less Capable than Others. It sounds unpleasant, but we must learn to accept it. No matter how capable you are , you are still inferior to someone else. You can’t never be the best. Only by keeping it in mind can you feel calm to face all the strikes and setbacks. For example, if you go to an interview for a position for which thousands of people are competing with you, you are actually a leaf that matches the final flower-the final winner.
I feel deeply grateful to my dear mother. She taught me since I was a child that I should be strong-willed and independent and striving nonstop. But she also reminds me that I will never be the No.1, so I need to learn to accept the fact that there is someone better than me. I need to learn to accept failure and play the role of second, third, even a thousandth place in the competition. It is a profound skill to learn to appreciate others’ sparkling point and learn from them. You can pursue what you want through your unyielding efforts. Envying and dreaming cannot help you. But it is a great pity that in our lives there are more people envying others while few appreciate. There are even fewer people who know to learn from others modestly. If you know your shortcomings and feel reluctant to change, then you will only vanish with time without any trace to be left behind.
On the phone, I said one sentence to my cousin: Treat daily practice as the college entrance exam while treat the college entrance exam as daily practice.