These days one of my feet were sort of painful. I had thought it was sprained, but it turned out to be nervous pain, which might presumably be caused by my eating something wrong. I felt terribly uneasy. Therefore I have been staying in my dormitory for almost a whole day. Last night I was too painful to fall into sleep. My roommates were already asleep then. Lamps on the road cast light through the windows into my room. Everything was fantastically quiet. In the quiet mid-night, I thought of an array of things.
Life in college flies swiftly. All of a sudden, three years has passed. Now I am already a senior student, who will leave my dear Shenzhen University in half a year. Thinking of it, my heart is filled with complex feelings. Walking through all this way, my life has encountered great changes, positive or negative. I have loved, hated, rejoiced, ached, smiled and cried during these years. Maybe it is so called “life”. I have grasped a lot of choices, but meantime I have lost a lot to be cherished. The ongoing life has tremendously enriched my life, but the hasty pace also rendered me miss numerous beautiful sceneries along the way. Due to my ever loss, I now learn to treasure people and things around me with multiple efforts. Due to my ever loss, I now know to stop my stride now and again, appreciating the scene roadside.
From my perspective, in college, it is more significant to learn to behave than master knowledge. One’s quality and temperament can be clearly reflected by his small deeds. Those who always place enough consideration on others’ feelings deserve the public’s respect. In college, the biggest conflict, I suppose, is the one between roommates. Maybe it might be too exaggerated to call it “conflict”, but it is actually a tricky problem. I have heard many of my classmates or friends complain about their roommates for not being considerate towards others. When one is sleeping, the other is playing music, or talking loudly, or going in and out noisily, or turning on the tap boisterously, etc. All these disgusting deeds are beyond anyone’s toleration!
It is a precious tie to live under the same roof. Therefore, roommates should tolerate and care about each other instead of disturbing others. For those who have performed the deeds mentioned above, I can do nothing but laugh bitterly. It indicates that they lack the basic moral upbringing. Of course, maybe sometimes the offender himself is not aware of the negative effects of his deeds on others. So the “victim” should inform him in some way instead of tolerating and harboring grudge all the time. It can save us a lot of troubles if we can consider the consequence of our deeds before we act. But if the offender refuses to change his bad deeds though told thousands of times, he must be somewhat mad or must have been over indulged by his folks.
I am not the one good at tolerating, but it does not mean that I will quarrel or fight with others if something goes wrong. On the one hand, I hate those who will be easily irritated to fight; on the other hand, I was born weak and thin and cannot fight with others. If I know my friend to be physically aggressive, it is hard for me to develop a good relationship with him. I dare not talk with him too much or at least I dare not makes jokes with him, for fear that I may be beaten black and blue due to my careless wording one day. If I cannot tolerate certain deeds, say, if I am disturbed when I am sleeping, I will send messages to or tell him directly not to go on.
If I do something wrong to others, I will apologize sincerely and try every means to make up for it. And if someone has done something wrong to me, I do not necessarily require any repay but apology. He should let me know he has acknowledged his fault and determined to correct. Otherwise, if he refuses to apologize and shouts back to me fiercely, I will not quarrel with him but keep silent forever. It is not because of my smallness. It is because I do not like such kind of character. To my mind, the most important quality for a person is sense of responsibility. If you dare to do something, you should also dare to shoulder the responsibility. Whatever the result may be, you should confront bravely. If you make a mistake and only know to escape, or even refuse to confess your fault, though you are tall and strong, you are actually a coward!
It is vitally important to feel right to our conscience when we are alive. It is also a fundamental principle for our being. On the contrary, if you have done something wrong and move mountain and earth to cover it, or even want to offset your guilt by donating some peanuts to the beggars on the road, you are indeed coward and childish. There is nothing we cannot overcome in the world as long as we have solid resolve!